✨Goodbye 2015

So being quite predictable, as we are embarking on our final hours until the ball drops I thought I would dedicate a blogpost to the previous year.

I have a tendency to presume that I have some shit times but extracting all the meloncholy- 2015 was the shittest year ever. Nonetheless, do not emit judgement on my judgement, I am simply letting go of it by analysing it.

I am honestly soooooo exstatic for 2016!! I will be turning 16, leaving the school of hell and starting an art course in an amazing college☺️

I plan to start taking control of my life and developing my artistic career, I am currently brainstorming ideas for this art competition due in for February, its contempary art which isnt my favourite but I just want experience!

I will most likely post my New Years resolutions online however I am planning on slowing transforming this blog to a platform where I can focus on the spreading of my art and different art discussions.

Also, I found out that my personality type is INTP which is like 3% of the population so wahey😏 Let me know if you’ve taken the test, you can find it on Google, and comment what personality you have!

Wishing you all a new year full of excitement, opportunities and love!

E.

Xoxo

🌱waffling…

Hi everyone, I’ve had no time recently to come up with blog ideas because either I am being lazy (which is not possible to get out of) or stupid things like mocks or coursework is getting in the way 😦

This post literally has no point whatsoever except to let out random thoughts and “waffle” which is something I feel deemed to good at. But what is wrong with going on a bit of a word vomit or having a long, non- structured rant? I personally class them more inspirational and literaturely elegant than a condense clan of ridiculously advanced words that, lets be honest, makes no fucking sense.
I haven’t watched Elf at all throughout this Christmas season which makes me sad but also signifies my whole December quite frankly. I don’t feel Christmasy at all. Blame it on excessive school work or time going by too quickly but in reality, I think I am just growing up which makes me sad.

I don’t actually know if I told my blog that I had applied for college a while back, yep definitely growing up.

I cannot wait to start my college, I’m going to do a diploma of art and design and that means I wont have to study something that doesn’t fuel my drive. I did say admittingly at the begining of the year that I wanted to make the most of the time left at school but unfortunately, shitty teachers and shitty people and shitty circumstances make that hard to achieve.

Also sidenote: my dog is half human, half cat😘

E.

Xoxo

November👑Playlist

Hey everyone, mock revision and over due art coursework has collectively distracted me away from writing blog posts this month but I thought it would be fitting in the last few minutes of November to start writing my favourite songs of the month since I cannot sleep!

1. Moving To New York by The Wombats- Never been an overly huge fan of The Wombats but since listening to their first album in volunteering recently it reminded me of how good they are, this is definitely my favourite of theirs!
2. Be Good by Max Brodie ft. Tom Rosenthal- If you think you havent heard of this song look it up because its on a vodafone advert or something along those lines and its such a chill song, reminds me of Vance Joy.
3. Our House by Madness- All time classic which all my family buzzes about😭 Seriously though, this song puts me in such a good mood amd it never gets borng for me.
4. Everybody Talks by Neon Trees- This song is soooo fucking catchy!! Its one of those songs which you’ve known for a while but you didnt know who it was actually by or even the name until you randomly come across it on Spotify…
5. Hotel California by Eagles- Both my parents are the biggest fans of Eagles, they went to their concert last year so cute, but I just really like this song, the guitar on this, oh my god!
6. Stronger Than Me by Amy Winehouse- If you know me well enough you’d know I’ve always loved Amy, but since we bought the Amy soundtrack I have been absolutely obbsessed with this song, I think its her best ever song, the sound of her voice is amazing as usual but the song itself is so unique.
7. You’re A Germ by Wolf Alice- Wolf Alice has always been one of those bands that I like the sound of but I never try hard to get into them however this song is a complete gem, best thing ever to walk to on the way to school, no idea why but when you listen you will understand. Love her voice.
8. Bloodshake by Peace- I’ve known this song for ages like since I found Peace but I usually prefer their slower/ chill songs like O You, Flirting USA and Float Forever but ever since this came on shuffle on my phone when I was walking home in the day the other day I realised how good it actually was, I don’t not like any Peace song ngl.
9. Something Like Happiness by The Maccabees- Had this song in my playlists for months but it was never one to constantly repeat but recently its grown on me and I really do love it, such a classic happy song 🙂
10. Let’s Get High by Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeros- Everyones heard of their song called “Home”, I guarentee you have even if you doubt you have, this songs on the What If soundtrack (WATCH THE FILM ITS AMAZING) and I just love it, I love the style of music it is, different.

This month I had so many new favourite songs and I could have featured a lot more like Bold As Love by Jimi Hendrix or Rockaway Beach by Ramones but in these posts I’ve always stuck to ten songs and tbh I think thats best because I’m pretty sure you will get extremely bored if I continue to ramble on. Like I’m doing now…

Expect more posts when it gets closer to Christmas holidays.

Lol doesnt feel like its December.

E.

xoxo

✌️Parents.

Today I am going to really try to express my anger because I am someone whos anger tends to be bottled up inside of me and scrunches my insides up like I am made out of paper.

I think something that the majority of us, if not every single being, can agree on is that our happiness is the most important thing and for those of you who can think of something else more important chances are that thing is still somehow your intention of happiness.
Money= happiness

Family= happiness

Adventure= happiness

Education= happiness

Do you understand my point?

I feel like my parents don’t understand this, they may say it from time to time but its significance is lacking in their actions. I believe if you teach your children in a strict manner with such harshness that what will be the result is a child that is untrustworthy because they’re only way to function a fun life is a mixture of lying and sneakiness. Infact don’t think of that as an opinion, it is a fact. I look at myself and think okay I have trust issues because my mum is so snide and because they intimidate me so much I would much rather go behind my parents back than ask for something. I see it in many people at school. Its sad.
I feel an enormous amount of guilt when I ask my mum for money which is my pocket money of which I do not recieve without doing jobs and having a good attitude. Why should I feel guilty? I shouldn’t. I’m asking for something which is mine. I feel guilty when I ask to go out with my friends every two months. I never go out.
But I wont let my parents get in the way of my happiness because life is too short, I am thankful that they provided for me in life but I don’t see how that can justify all the snideness and mind games they give me.

My god I can’t wait till I’m 18.

E.

Xoxo

October👻Playlist

Hi I am doing this months song blog early (ish) because I’m aware that I completely skipped over September but I had more surreal things on my mind and also so I don’t forgot to do this later because Halloween and half- term is soooooo close😊

Also, I forgot to mention in my last post that I went to my first therapy last Monday, I might make a post about it once I go a few more times but it was okay I suppose…

1. I Hate by Passenger- Absolutely in love with this song and this particular Passengers album altogether, it is the album that includes Let Her Go which is pretty popular obviously so if you like the sound of that type then the whole album carries the same tone but this song is amazing and the things he says are both funny and sad.
2. Charlemagne by Blossoms– Really like a lot of the Blossoms stuff but I cant listen to them over and over again in a short space of time because I can get bored of that type of music quite easily but this song is just great to just sit and listen to.
3. The Hills by The Weeknd– If you dont know me well then you probably dont realise how much of a Weeknd fan I am, just I loveeee how creative and unique all their content is and it really got me through DofE.
4. O You by Peace– NEW FAVOURITE PEACE SONG it used to be Float Forever and that still is one of my most favouritest songs ever but O You is just so happy and sad at the same time and idk it just flows so amazingly.
5. Somewhere Only We Know by Keane– First of all, whenever I listen to this the scene from Lol with Lola and Kyle which is my favourite scene out of one of the best films and is the reason why I want to live in Chicago, aside from a large chunk of my family that live there. Urgh this song just reminds me of winter for no reason and I have always loved it.
6. Clint Eastwood by Gorillaz– I just cant get over Gorillaz and this song is non stop playing in my playlist, I honestly think they are so talented and they are a nice change to listen to rather than bland indie same old shit sometimes.
7. Bathed In Light by Gengahr– Either this or Lonely As A Shark has been featured on this blog but this song has been back on my spotify frequently this past month, I love the vocals on this specific song and I get the lyrics so much like ridiculously.
8. Fallout by Catfish And The Bottlemen– Again like Passenger, the Catfish album has been so good to just put on when I am busy doing art coursework or revision and this has always been my fave of theirs and weirdly the bridge is my favourite part which is odd, I know that sounds weird, but honestly I hate that part of the song and I typically skip it!
9. Yeah Yeah Yeah by New Politics– This is such a throwback to my 13/14 year old days and I just love it, sometimes I just need a loud song in my life.
10. Otherside by Red Hot Chili Peppers– Of course most people here know my love for this band but I was never into this song before but its grew on me and I also never knew it was actually about suicide.

E.

Xoxo

horoscopes🌟

Sorry for not posting in a while, I have had the time to I just feel like loads of things I do are pointless recently… but its okay I am forcing myself to now 🙂

Sidenote, been on my DofE expedition and for some weird reason I absolutely loved it and had the best time like it was so good to just be with good friends and have a fun with everyone.

I just wanted to say how much I really do believe in horoscopes, I felt the need to write this post because of my horoscope I got today, I always read it every morning or night if I forget but sometimes they are so real to my life situations that I feel like there is a thing watching over me but I find it so interesting!! 

If anything, when I have an extra shitty day I like my aries readin because it makes me feel comforted that everything will be alright and I think everyone can agree with me on that even if you think all of this is a load of shit.

E.

Xoxo

🌱Thoughts.

• I really love Skins, I can’t stop watching it, I am watching it now
• Following on, I never used to like Michelle and I’m not quite sure why but since the second series I feel so sorry for her which surprisingly even though Tony got hit by a bus I still hate the shit out of him
• I wish it was completely acceptable to wear flowly pants to every type of situation and now I want to wear some tomorrow i.e the same thing I am sitting in now
• My whole family really underestimates how aware I am of everything but they don’t know that I would rather stay out of peoples petty affairs
• Every time I step a foot into school I try to count the days until I leave because all the teachers there are so snide and bitchy and only give shits about the kiss arse people or “threatening” people
• (trying not to refer to Skins in every point soz) Can’t get over that the person from Skins is that guy in Slumdog Millionaire?!!?!?
• I get annoyed because I absolutely love english but I hate my teacher
• Currently I am trying not to think about how much art coursework I have but I am also looking forward to the exam which is fucking weird I know
• I have a really big craving to go to a beach and swim
• Mango and lychee green tea gives me really bad memories when I drink it
• I hate my body so much, so so so so so so much
• I want to go on the till when I go volunteering tomorrow
• I have literally remembered I am doing my DofE actual walk next month- fuuuuucccckkkk
• I need to do a million and one things right now
• Seeing Peace live again next Thursday is getting me excited
• Also thinking of excited, found the perfect coat I will get tomorrow

E.

Xoxo

👙Favourite Clothes

Today I was really in the mood to talk about clothes because they’re always on my mind, so I thought I would write a list of favourite items of clothes that I reach for if in doubt…

• Oversized bagged mens flannel shirt, I feel like I can always throw one on
• Denim a-line skirt, the one I have I got from a charity shop and it fits perfectly so its easy and comfortable (I would rather have something more basic that fits rather than something trendy which doesn’t fit right)
• Denim vintage bomber jacket, I got it from a shop called Ressurection in Liverpool and its the best thing to put on over a boring outfit plus extremely comfy
• Velvet crop top, because velvet looks so interesting it makes a basic outfit look so much better, because velvets thick as well its nice for a colder day aswell!
• Flowy, patterned pants, I own three pairs currently and I’m pretty sure my collection will grow, THEY ARE JUST SO COMFY and I think they look really cute with a tighter fitting top as it sort of makes everything balanced.
• Cord black skirt from Urban Outfitters, its just so nice and makes anything with it look gorgeous!
• Bardo tops, I think they are soooo flattering and its an alternative way of showing off your body than a crop top which can sometimes feel a bit old and typical

E.

Xoxo

🎏Films🎏

Here is a list of my favourite films + why…

1. Requiem for a dream If I had to pick a favourite this would have to be highly considered. I love it. Very much. I love how it’s incredibly  surreal, my favourite type of theme, it is real and it doesn’t have a happy ending, the filmography as well is absolutely beautiful and fits in exactly with the story. Definitely watch it + Jared looks so fit as a drug addict.
2. Lolita (1997) I am inlove with Lolita, as you can see already I like the weird type of films because they turn out to be so interesting and a unique experience to watch. In Lolita you change your perspective so frequently because it is much more than a 2D storyline with 2D characters! Her dress sense is amazing.
3. Shawsank Redemption One that I watched with my family after their suggestion, I loooooved it! One thing to know about me is that I don’t cry at films but (spoiler) when the old man hung himself I shed several tears. Very very good storyline and there is always things I forgot happened everytime I re- watch it which must be a good sign!
4. Juno Who doesn’t love Juno? One things for certain that soundtrack is amazing. But in terms of the film I love how it keeps a light- hearted undertone throughout it which makes me happy even when the shitty things happen. I think I just really appreciate it due to me being a teenager and it being quite realistic. Micheal Cera is a babe.
5. Lovely Bones I adore how it is layed out, that the really bad thing a.k.a murder happens at the begining yet by the end after several series of events it turns out to be happy. The main character is absolutely beautiful and I think she is an amazing actor!

Obviously I love alot of other films but that would take too long. I also love Nowhere Boy (a recent watch), Schindlers List, Forrest Gump, Lol, Clueless, Yellow Submarine,  any Saw film and the list could potentially go on…

E.

Xoxo

🌍The Now.

Being away from a city enviroment for two weeks with fresher air, more animals and nicer mannered people provoked my thoughts throughout the last week. Yesterday I came to a very clear conclusion by myself whilst I sat in my auntie’s garden in the rain. It was a very good day 🙂

Whatever problem you face in your life is always due to you not living in the present tense- the now.

And it makes sense.

If you live and act upon decisions based on your past then you feel stuck and vunerable. You are still referring back to your past so much that time goes by too slowly. You are not letting go. 

When living in the future you are causing stress and anixety because you are providing your brain with unnecessary questions and doubts.  You seem to put all your effort into future plans that time goes by too quickly. You are being too anixous.
But the now. Present. Current situation. That is the most advised tense to take part in life with. It paces you, you fully appreciate and become grateful for everything your life consists of. You embrace the bad things because you know that they are both temporary and insignificant. You actually realise your self worth as you know life is too short.

E. 

Xoxo

p.s If you disagree thats good, I don’t want to explain myself- I’d much rather leave it for people to grow opinions.